He remembered his symbol and his interests were IMMEDIATELY ACQUIRE BACKUP. Shell needed a surgeon. SHELL THUS OWED HIM SOMETHING. Kaoru specifically was the one he did his amateur organ transplant on and he doubted he'd be a threat to him in any way. EASY TARGET.
but slavery happened and Kaoru as a backup plan fell through. WORST NIGHTMARE CAME THROUGH HAVING A BACKUP BODY HELPS ACTUALLY NOT AT ALL HERE.
he might completely forget he has power over Kaoru until they meet again, he is way too involved in other fallout to have a strong opinion on him right now. EVEN AS FAR AS TOOLS GO, he has Gilgamesh and he knows Gil could be useful because he remembers him in a way that paints him as a possible threat. and he is honestly scared of getting anything he actually wants right now because March might ruin it for the sake of ruining it. KAORU IS OFF THE HOOK CURRENTLY.
He's still afraid enough of him that he won't let on that he's entrapped by him (since. he still thinks he is.) He's finding that it makes it difficult to say things like SHARK TOTALLY DESERVES BEING ENSLAVED since. then people wonder why he thinks Shark deserves it and he can only give vague answers and that's even more suspicious. 8') (He was speaking to Brandy about it in Zen's post and that situation occurred, s-so.)
He's probably going to just completely shut down on talking about it since he's still afraid, buuut he might jab him about the March thing the next time they talk. He knows it's not the best idea, but it's what he feels like is one of the only ways he has to strike back against him, and he needs to strike back in order to feel like he's got some measure of control.
Anything you're looking forward to doing with Shark specifically?
I WANT TO SEE HOW THIS PARTICULAR PLOT ARC GOES. SINCE THERE'S LIKE. POSSIBLE A: BREAKING DOWN ENOUGH MARCH NOTICES AND CHANGES THEIR CONTRACT AS ONE EXIT.
or if left alone there's like three major possible ways for him to go crazy, because he can't continue to blue screen forever and this basically crosses every line he has.
SO. ONE: IF HE MANAGES TO REPAIR HIS DENIAL MECHANISM AND IS ONCE AGAIN CAPABLE OF DECIDING. NO THIS DOESN'T SUCK THIS IS CLEARLY WHAT I WANTED ALL ALONG. (spoilers packrat is batshit insane, coping doesn't work like this jesus christ) But he would count it as a victory. Look I won; you could only control me by going this far. ☆ WAS IT WORTH IT MARCH? Now I'm yours~ This is seriously all you're going to do? He'd start pushing buttons like when he did the eight paragraph ramble of paranoid awful, except shorter, deliberate, vicious focused spurts of traumatic taunting. PRETTY FUCKING PATHETIC, YOU CAN'T DO ANY OF THAT? Wow, I can't believe I let you win! When given orders go the extra mile especially when March didn't mean it. IMPRESS UPON HIM HOW HORRIBLE THIS IS by inflicting it on others and doing his damnedest to certain March knows he was only ~following orders~. EH WHATEVER I CAN ENJOY IT. I DON'T NEED TO EAT. OH WE'RE KILLING SAGE IN THIS GAME? TIME FOR OVERKILL. And every time March ordered him to back down would be a victory for him. I HAVE DECIDED I WILL FOLLOW YOUR RULES BUT WE'RE PLAYING A NEW GAME NOW.
SECOND: this one actually needs a lot of outside intervention because he can't break his pacts and this seems to him nothing but suicidal! But if March makes it clear that his contract just backed him further into a corner, not given him breathing room or even the possibility of peace; AND DECO KEEPS HANDING HIM TOOLS. . . Then he will have motivation. Even right now, he has Gilgamesh, he will probably remember he has Kaoru as a tool, and Enkidu brought up killing March. And at this point it is like fuck it but I will make you suffer YOU WILL SEE KEEPING THIS PACT DOESN'T ACTUALLY MAKE THINGS BETTER FOR YOU I WILL RUIN EVERYTHING SO BADLY EVEN IF YOU ORDER ME TO STOP IT WILL BE TOO LATE. Any game he goes into on his own, plays stupidly and viciously, advertise his status as March's tool while doing awful shit, encourage people to go after him as much as possible, use up all three of his command seals on things like HEY GIL KILL MARCH SLOWLY so he has none left and March can't order him to use the last to undo them. Usually the first thing would be more likely, but Deco keeps handing him tools and encouragement, and his denial mechanism doesn't get repaired. . .
THREE: no denial repair or encouragement happens. I GUESS THIS IS TWO PATHS, BUT BOTH SELF-FOCUSED WHILE THE OTHER TWO ARE ATTACKS AT MARCH. A: STARTS TO SELF-DESTRUCT FROM PURE PARANOIA. B: HEDONISM FUCK EVERYTHING THAT ISN'T HAPPENING RIGHT THIS SECOND NO PAST NO FUTURE WHAT WILL MAKE ME HAPPY RIGHT NOW. A involves him tearing up his own things and smashing them and reacting really poorly to anyone that dares treat him even halfway friendly because I CAN'T GET THINGS I WILL JUST LOSE THEM NO NO NO NO NO FUCK YOU. I WON'T BE ABLE TO COPE. Regain control in his life by making sure he is the agent of his own destruction. /WINNING. B: HEDONISM MAKES HIM WILDLY UNPREDICTABLE because he will do whatever he wants to AT THAT MOMENT consequences and future punishments be damned because eh those could be coming no matter what. It turns him into a hell of a loose canon but makes CR easier again. Might try figuring out how to social again because fighting every conversation is less satisfying than being able to talk people around to what he likes and receiving attention. starts eating again and playing at human more except when oh it's time to for a game I GUESS WE'RE DOING THIS OKAY DONE back to whatever the fuck appeals to me. But it's also a dangerous path because if someone pisses him off WELL OKAY I GUESS YOU'RE WORTH NO TIME BUT CONQUERING YOU WILL MAKE ME FEEL BETTER. loose canon extraordinaire.
THOUGHTS ON THESE AND ALSO WHAT ACCESSORY DO YOU WANT?
I LIKE THEM but I think one needs to be a sensible sort of cloth and the other needs to be covered in satin and elegantly placed rhinestones for accents and maybe metallic threads. Sparkles~~
I also still vote for crowns/tiaras for an accessory.
BUT THEN THEY WON'T MATCH. NEED TO BE THE SAME MATERIALS, GEEZE. BOTH RHINESTONES AND METALLICS OR NOTHING.
actually fuck I might need to nerf those anyway 'cause setting appropriateness BUT YES I DID ASK. AT LEAST METALLICS. I COULD PROBABLY SWING SHINY SEED BEED PATTERNING?? RHINESTONES ARE NO PROBLEM THOUGH NOW THAT I LOOK...
but yes I can do that second part.
I HAVE TWO TYPES: A: BIG CHOICE TEAM DYNAMIC AND ALLIANCE GAMES. THINGS LIKE ELEVATOR GAME OR GAME MASTER OR WAR ROOMS.
and Type B is fuck yes enjoyable game play, where the fun part is actually the playing not the mechanics. ZOMBIE PROM. TITLE SWAP. THINGS LIKE THAT.
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He remembered his symbol and his interests were IMMEDIATELY ACQUIRE BACKUP. Shell needed a surgeon. SHELL THUS OWED HIM SOMETHING. Kaoru specifically was the one he did his amateur organ transplant on and he doubted he'd be a threat to him in any way. EASY TARGET.
but slavery happened and Kaoru as a backup plan fell through. WORST NIGHTMARE CAME THROUGH HAVING A BACKUP BODY HELPS ACTUALLY NOT AT ALL HERE.
he might completely forget he has power over Kaoru until they meet again, he is way too involved in other fallout to have a strong opinion on him right now. EVEN AS FAR AS TOOLS GO, he has Gilgamesh and he knows Gil could be useful because he remembers him in a way that paints him as a possible threat. and he is honestly scared of getting anything he actually wants right now because March might ruin it for the sake of ruining it. KAORU IS OFF THE HOOK CURRENTLY.
REVERSE?
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He's still afraid enough of him that he won't let on that he's entrapped by him (since. he still thinks he is.) He's finding that it makes it difficult to say things like SHARK TOTALLY DESERVES BEING ENSLAVED since. then people wonder why he thinks Shark deserves it and he can only give vague answers and that's even more suspicious. 8') (He was speaking to Brandy about it in Zen's post and that situation occurred, s-so.)
He's probably going to just completely shut down on talking about it since he's still afraid, buuut he might jab him about the March thing the next time they talk. He knows it's not the best idea, but it's what he feels like is one of the only ways he has to strike back against him, and he needs to strike back in order to feel like he's got some measure of control.
Anything you're looking forward to doing with Shark specifically?
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or if left alone there's like three major possible ways for him to go crazy, because he can't continue to blue screen forever and this basically crosses every line he has.
SO. ONE: IF HE MANAGES TO REPAIR HIS DENIAL MECHANISM AND IS ONCE AGAIN CAPABLE OF DECIDING. NO THIS DOESN'T SUCK THIS IS CLEARLY WHAT I WANTED ALL ALONG. (spoilers packrat is batshit insane, coping doesn't work like this jesus christ) But he would count it as a victory. Look I won; you could only control me by going this far. ☆ WAS IT WORTH IT MARCH? Now I'm yours~ This is seriously all you're going to do? He'd start pushing buttons like when he did the eight paragraph ramble of paranoid awful, except shorter, deliberate, vicious focused spurts of traumatic taunting. PRETTY FUCKING PATHETIC, YOU CAN'T DO ANY OF THAT? Wow, I can't believe I let you win! When given orders go the extra mile especially when March didn't mean it. IMPRESS UPON HIM HOW HORRIBLE THIS IS by inflicting it on others and doing his damnedest to certain March knows he was only ~following orders~. EH WHATEVER I CAN ENJOY IT. I DON'T NEED TO EAT. OH WE'RE KILLING SAGE IN THIS GAME? TIME FOR OVERKILL. And every time March ordered him to back down would be a victory for him. I HAVE DECIDED I WILL FOLLOW YOUR RULES BUT WE'RE PLAYING A NEW GAME NOW.
SECOND: this one actually needs a lot of outside intervention because he can't break his pacts and this seems to him nothing but suicidal! But if March makes it clear that his contract just backed him further into a corner, not given him breathing room or even the possibility of peace; AND DECO KEEPS HANDING HIM TOOLS. . . Then he will have motivation. Even right now, he has Gilgamesh, he will probably remember he has Kaoru as a tool, and Enkidu brought up killing March. And at this point it is like fuck it but I will make you suffer YOU WILL SEE KEEPING THIS PACT DOESN'T ACTUALLY MAKE THINGS BETTER FOR YOU I WILL RUIN EVERYTHING SO BADLY EVEN IF YOU ORDER ME TO STOP IT WILL BE TOO LATE. Any game he goes into on his own, plays stupidly and viciously, advertise his status as March's tool while doing awful shit, encourage people to go after him as much as possible, use up all three of his command seals on things like HEY GIL KILL MARCH SLOWLY so he has none left and March can't order him to use the last to undo them. Usually the first thing would be more likely, but Deco keeps handing him tools and encouragement, and his denial mechanism doesn't get repaired. . .
THREE: no denial repair or encouragement happens. I GUESS THIS IS TWO PATHS, BUT BOTH SELF-FOCUSED WHILE THE OTHER TWO ARE ATTACKS AT MARCH. A: STARTS TO SELF-DESTRUCT FROM PURE PARANOIA. B: HEDONISM FUCK EVERYTHING THAT ISN'T HAPPENING RIGHT THIS SECOND NO PAST NO FUTURE WHAT WILL MAKE ME HAPPY RIGHT NOW. A involves him tearing up his own things and smashing them and reacting really poorly to anyone that dares treat him even halfway friendly because I CAN'T GET THINGS I WILL JUST LOSE THEM NO NO NO NO NO FUCK YOU. I WON'T BE ABLE TO COPE. Regain control in his life by making sure he is the agent of his own destruction. /WINNING. B: HEDONISM MAKES HIM WILDLY UNPREDICTABLE because he will do whatever he wants to AT THAT MOMENT consequences and future punishments be damned because eh those could be coming no matter what. It turns him into a hell of a loose canon but makes CR easier again. Might try figuring out how to social again because fighting every conversation is less satisfying than being able to talk people around to what he likes and receiving attention. starts eating again and playing at human more except when oh it's time to for a game I GUESS WE'RE DOING THIS OKAY DONE back to whatever the fuck appeals to me. But it's also a dangerous path because if someone pisses him off WELL OKAY I GUESS YOU'RE WORTH NO TIME BUT CONQUERING YOU WILL MAKE ME FEEL BETTER. loose canon extraordinaire.
THOUGHTS ON THESE AND ALSO WHAT ACCESSORY DO YOU WANT?
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I also still vote for crowns/tiaras for an accessory.
What are your favorite kinds of games to play in?
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actually fuck I might need to nerf those anyway 'cause setting appropriateness BUT YES I DID ASK. AT LEAST METALLICS. I COULD PROBABLY SWING SHINY SEED BEED PATTERNING?? RHINESTONES ARE NO PROBLEM THOUGH NOW THAT I LOOK...but yes I can do that second part.
I HAVE TWO TYPES: A: BIG CHOICE TEAM DYNAMIC AND ALLIANCE GAMES. THINGS LIKE ELEVATOR GAME OR GAME MASTER OR WAR ROOMS.
and Type B is fuck yes enjoyable game play, where the fun part is actually the playing not the mechanics. ZOMBIE PROM. TITLE SWAP. THINGS LIKE THAT.
Kaoru's thoughts on Hikaru right now.
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I answered that already! You can ask another question if you want.
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HOW IS PLAYING THE WOODS NOW THAT YOU'VE DONE IT A BIT MORE I KNOW FOR A BIT YOU WERE REGRETTING HAVING AN NPC WITHOUT A VOICE?