IT WAS HIS HUMAN MEMORIES because of fallout of those and remembering properly the feelings he should have and now lacks, and after getting those I wanted to give him his WAKING UP WITH AMNESIA: THE SECOND memory of first being Packrat and seeing if he freaked the fuck out because sudden forced awareness of oh god this is wrong/fucked up shove in his face, rather than a grating old wound THIS IS THE SUDDEN CHANGE FROM WHAT YOU WERE TO WHAT YOU ARE.

But due to current events those need to be put on the backburner because y-yesss that would not be. Helpful. Right now.

MEMORIES YOU HAVE LOCKED OFF AND WHY?